Trauma (Do Princesses Dream of Magic Sheep?)

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WARNING: As per my previous posts on this topic, it contains items that are from a personal retrospective and are based on my thoughts and mine alone. Trolls, haters and wannabe heroes who want to cause trouble will be dealt with and run the risk of being reported. This post also may contains some spoilers for those who haven't seen the episode yet, so you've been warned.

With that said....
 

I am here in my office at 8:00 in the morning. I am teary eyed, in panic and literally in a state of shock.

It's no secret that during the time I have been watching My Little Pony that I have add the odd episode that made me sick, cried my eyes out or cheering like crazy. This show tests all of your emotions and then some. There is no shame in letting the tears flow or a scene that makes you want to get the bucket and lose your lunch.

There have also been episodes where I simply just wanted to switch off the TV or close VLC due to it's content either getting me angry to no end or even wanting to lock horns with people.

But I never, ever stopped watching an episode of My Little Pony due to my mental health and post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) affecting me so much, even to the point I couldn't write this post.

I had some things to talk about it such as the return of Nightmare Noon and the adventure of Luna and the Mane 6 going into REM sleep, but now I can't even put pen to paper without having to go through several PTSD attacks just even thinking about it.

For ten minutes of the episode, I had to deal with most screwed up visuals I have seen in my life complete with giant bunnies, nursery ryhmes that had me banging my head on the desk and literallly covering my ears to block out the painful memories before it got too much and almost had to call for an ambulance due to almost going into a severe uncontrolable panic attack.

I am not joking when I say this, I was literally fearing for my life.

I have only encountered situations like this only twice, one of them almost being a near death encounter over the 1983 telemovie "The Day After" due to the traumatic visuals of the explosion scenes.

In fact, encountering this sort of stuff isn't new to me as I discovered when one of the Fallout 3 expansion packs really got screwed up with graphic glitches which simulated a psychotic episode almost did me in a few years ago. I had to wear 3D glasses and turn the volume on my headphones down just to even get through that part of the game.

So you may be wondering, if she can handle a movie on the Cold War and a video game expansion pack gone bad, then why did she chicken out on a episode based on sleep and dreams?

I can't explain that to you. It's just too hard for me.

Even if I could try and explain why this happens, then I would be back to square one. All I can say is this.

I don't have a definite verdict on what I thought about the episode. I didn't like it nor did I hate it. I can't recommend whether to watch this episode or not as people's tastes and interests are different. There is no set standard.

I'll leave it at that for now.

*plays Redgum's I Was 19*

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